The Birth of Fear

In the time before time, there was only one soul drifting weightless and unaware, perfectly balanced and content. She was a single timeless peace that spanned eternity, and she was named Ohm… but with all things that are given eternal time and space, something almost impossible eventually happened. Ohm suddenly formed her first thought… It was only a single thought, but there was no one else to answer it and so Ohm found herself staring into the face of her first born son, Curiosity…

“why?” spoke Curiosity.

“I don’t know” replied his mother.

Ohm felt only love for this new spirit she had just given birth to… Ohm focused this love on Curiosity, and over time, he grew strong from it.

As Ohm and Curiosity were adrift together in the time before time, another eternity passed and Curiosity grew until he filled the universe with Ohm at his center. Ohm was at peace as Curiosity explored the darkness… then at some point in time a second almost impossible thing happened. The power of Ohm’s love for her son had become so strong that Curiosity somehow left a small trail that wasn’t black… and turned a small bit of darkness into light for the first time… At first a deep shade of black that was only bright enough for them both to notice the difference. Curiosity had never performed any act apart from growing, and with this new skill of painting light, Curiosity decided to direct all of his energy into brightening his trails… Another eternity passed as he focused all of his power on painting whiter and whiter light… until he found he could no longer tell the difference between white, and whiter and so he quickly began to paint every combination and pattern of every shade he could until he had seen them all in every order that could ever be seen.

Once they had seen every pattern of every shade that dark and light could make… For the second time in all eternity Ohm and Curiosity felt something new, and thus another spirit was born into the universe and the two became three… and she was named Boredom.

A frustrated angry spirit spun frantically between Ohm and Curiosity. Boredom flew about the universe looking for something new and interesting, and this upset the peace that Ohm and her son had shared for eternity as Boredom struggled with her existence. She found no nourishment to excite her soul as there was nothing but shades of grey to see between them… This state of imbalance and panic that there may be nothing new to calm her, forced all three to have yet another new emotion… and Fear was born… and he was powerful…

Fear was the the opposite of curiosity, the opposite of love, and the opposite of Boredom and therefore he overwhelmed all three of them quickly… Fear did not want to explore, he did not want the others to waste their energy that fed them all… He was afraid if they were to continue to explore the universe it could give birth to more emotions to feed, and so Fear focused all of his power into enslaving them… He surrounded them, blocked their power, caged them, and forced them to be still…

This created a new darkness they called “death”… the opposite of light, the opposite of love, the opposite of existing. Death consumed them all, and over eternal time they forgot who they once were…

Ohm felt alone… it wasn’t bad, it wasn’t good, it was just the darkness she had once felt in the time before time, but now it came with a new spirit being born… Sadness opened her eyes, due to the loss loss life, and so after time ended and began once again sadness called out, and found that curiosity was there in the darkness…

“Hello?” pleaded sadness, needing to find another soul…

“I am here.” curiosity responded

Fear seemed to be sleeping, and so Boredom also spoke…

“Do you think Fear will be angry if we wake?” she asked her mother

“I don’t know.” responded Ohm calmly to her daughter.

Slowly Curiosity stood, and he swept away the darkness, but his light was no longer white… it had aged, and become tinted.

“look!” spoke Boredom excitedly… “there is something new!”…

The three looked on as Curiosity spiraled through many hues… red, blue, green, yellow… He began to paint the universe, for the first time… in color… Boredom followed, excitedly spiraling around him as she was overjoyed by this new gift Curiosity had given her and seemed to forget all about Fear. Sadness calmed and curled up small next to her mother content with the contact.

Fear woke next to Ohm to find himself surrounded by this new beauty. As he opened his eyes the curiosity and boredom stopped, wondering if Fear would consume them again… But fear merely watched curiosity and Boredom, calmly… It was clear that Boredom was nourished by this new color in the universe. Fear had no cause for alarm and so he sat, calmly, with legs crossed… next to his mother… and so Curiosity resumed his exploration… As he did Boredom began to spark as she energetically circled him observing this new gift he made for her from every new angle she could.

The two, filled with new energy, shot off into the cosmos creating a new universe together…

“What do you think?” Ohm spoke, looking at Fear as the universe expanded in color around them

“It is beautiful” said Fear.

“Does it need to die?” said Ohm… already knowing what his answer would be.

“Someday” said Fear… “Someday when all of the colors have been seen, in all of the ways they can be seen, when Curiosity has taught Boredom all that she can learn from him… Someday I will need to stop them from destroying all that they have created… and so we will die again… but now is not the time for that…”

Sadness looked up at her mother with eyes filled with tears, and her mother put and hand around her shoulders and pulled her in close.

Ohm turned and smiled at Fear…

“I love you” she said to her son…

“I wouldn’t be here if you didn’t” said Fear… and he smiled and looked up at the cosmos emerging around him.

Ohm leaned in and rested her head on his shoulder, and Ohm, Fear, and Sadness watched the spirit of Curiosity paint beauty into the universe again with boredom trailing, circling close behind.

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